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"I Used to Go Here,” from writer/director克里斯雷伊，捕获有时不安中的中间的30年代中期的生活时，当你的大学梦已不完全是摇出来，或者他们是否有那么他们没有给你带来什么，你认为他们会带来。有些人蓬勃发展在30多岁。但对于其他人，这是一个艰难的十年，有难以名紧张。也许你觉得你应该是进一步沿着你所选择的任何路径。也许你环顾四周，和所有的朋友都结婚了，怀孕了。也许你觉得生物钟滴答作响。如果你在一个糟糕的顶部空间的时候，就好像每个人，除非你是活自己最好的生活。这听起来很暗。但是，“我曾经去这里，”从一个漂亮的业绩接地Gillian Jacobs笑着对待它的主题,而动managing to be honest.
凯特（雅各布）被激发有出版了她的第一部小说，虽然，她宣告她最好的朋友（一个很有趣佐伊潮），“盖是可怕的。”而它确实是。这是我见过的最糟糕的书籍封面之一。标题也好不了多少：Seasons Passed. Is that a double entendre or is it just … really bad? Still, it’s something to be published, especially since her fiancé has just broken off their engagement and—according to his Instagram feed—has already moved on with another woman. Initial sales ofSeasons Passed是令人失望的，她的出版商得到惊吓，取消了她即将出版的新书之旅（强迫他们打气通话快乐在电话中被压碎）。丧失，凯特从她占据了报价母校做一本书的阅读。
推力回到她的老大学城的熟悉的世界，她是怀旧淹没。她读书是她的写作一次性导师（举办Jemaine Clement), now head of the Creative Writing department. He’s got his wife in tow, but he flirts with Kate, asking her to go out for a drink afterwards. He's handsome, wearing a turtleneck and blazer, and his behavior is a little bit sleazy, but it’s the kind of sleazy favored by men who consider themselves to be intellectuals. This is such a specific dynamic and Clement nails it.
Throughout, Kate is in between two worlds: her book is a failure, and yet here at the college she’s a “star,” with hopeful students asking her for career advice. She can barely be civil. Her book is bad, she feels like a fraud. Kate regresses, and quickly. She gets into a battle of wills with the hostile proprietress (Cindy Gold) of the B&B where she’s staying, and befriends a group of college kids living in the big house across the street (the house where she lived when she “used to go here.”) Instead of focusing on the adult activities of being a visiting teaching artist, she hangs out with the kids, eventually calling them by their nicknames (“Animal,” “Tall Brandon”). The kids sense she’s having some kind of mild nervous breakdown, and don’t question why she keeps coming over. The actors playing the kids—Josh Wiggins,福雷斯特古德勒克,布兰登·戴利，Khloe哈内尔，都是优秀的，他们共同创建的朋友绵密组的可信感。
If “I Used to Go Here” were made in 1976,Jill Clayburghwould have played Kate. The role requires that kind of honesty and an almost cringe-y awkwardness, coming from the character’s self-consciousness and embarrassment. Clayburgh’s characters may have been awkward but they were always intelligent, always trying to figure things out to the best of their ability. Jacobs is firmly in the Jill Clayburgh tradition. (See also the excellent “Don’t Think Twice.”) Jacobs is so good at suggesting the competing stresses working on Kate's psychology, and makes Kate's descent into adolescent irresponsibility both funny and touching. “I Used to Go Here” features a very well-drawn character arc, thanks to Rey’s script, but Jacobs fills it with heart and feeling.
There is an extended sequence late in the film—when Kate and the kids go on a midnight mission—that doesn’t work very well, and has such a different tone it feels like it’s from another film entirely. It’s just not as interesting as the rest of “I Used to Go Here,” with its focus on nostalgia, regression, adulthood, letting stuff go. It’s always dangerous to try to capture what can’t be captured again, to try to re-enter the world your younger self inhabited. Nostalgia can be beautiful, but it can be a trap too.
A final thought: The fact that Kate wrote such a bad book is dealt with in a really subtle way, so subtle I almost missed it. Why would this smart funny woman write such a terrible pretentious book? At one point, she declares defensively that she wastryingto write a “restrained” book. Considering the wacky shenanigans she gets up to during the course of the film, it’s clear by inference that Kate has been lying to herself, in her life and in her writing, and the critics who trashed her book sensed it. One of the college kids tells Kate he read a personal essay published in the school newspaper back when she was a student; he tells her it was so good, and "so sad." Feeling floods Jacobs’ face as she remembers that essay, how sad she was when she wrote it, how free she felt to put that sadness into words.